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I was damn tired despite sleeping for 9 hours. So I ended up sleeping again from 5 to 7. At 10, Edwin asked me to go Sheares to meet erlin and pat. At the bus stop, I called my bro, and there were these 2 angmohs, looking at me and started dancing. One of them came to me, asked me whether he can talk to the person I was talking to[who is my brother]. and he looked at me, smiled and walked off. I didnt get the chance to know his name coz they were taking cab. I was blurred. On my way to Sheares hall, I try to recover from the shock. They are damn funny lar, and i dont even know what they were toking abt becoz they dont speak english. and i wonder, is there something wrong about me?

In the bus, we met Jeremy, the UCLA guy. He lost his transponder and he suspected he put it at YIH level 5. Poor thing lar. He had to rush to yih at 11 pm, and he looks like nothing is so serious about losing a transponder. and he had lost it twice. I think this time is the third time.

At sheares, we had to wait for them. And we had supper there [I met my OG fren and classmate, who happen to be neighbours to each other, wat a small singapore and nus] The fried rice was nice, but i was very full. Teddy helped me move some rice to edwin's plate when he didnt realize it. haha...I AM still full. and I think i'm gg to gain weight at undesirable place.

wat an interesting day...

We ran at 12:13 AM

space and sleepless

my pgp room now smells good. edwin said the bau-ampek is gone. of course i took care of my room. it's so good to have my own personal space. u know...when i forgot my things, i can just walk out the toilet bare-naked. haha...so unlike home or my tanah merah lodging home. My frens was shocked when i told her, she said my mind went bonky. aiyo, not as if ppl can see u lar. and now, she did the same thing too. wth!!

i have not been sleeping enuf again. Training ended at 930 yesterday. By the time we packed mc.d and ate dinner, it was 1230. I slept at 1 and woke up at 7. Now I'm sempoyongan and my eyes are like those of pandas'

and my fren is crapping wif me thru msn now. I'll just entertain him

We ran at 8:00 PM

life's gaining its momentum, so am I

I think school has really started, with small assignments here and there. I am always busy printing lecture notes, go back and forth CBLC at YIH. I love eating sushi there. Most of the times, after practice, I eat outside. I patronised sukiya sushi, muchimonkey, subway and Mc.D. You see how fattening these foods are, but hey!! no worry, I'm not gg to die of fats or cholestrol.

I think my cca is gg to demand at least 9 hrs of practice per week. Does dat mean I'm gg to be stuck at home during weekend doing stuffs? I was so busy in fact dat I didn't wash my clothes for 1 week. The bucket was full of dirty laundry. I have to wash my track pants manually and spend more time on sleeping.

I met one interesting ppl today. Her name is Jennifer. She was born in LA and raised there. Her dad is an Indonesian [sundanese] and her mom is a hongkonger. This is the 1st half-indon born in USA whom i met today, besides indirectly know michelle branch. One more interesting thing is dat, she has been visitning indon quite often though she didn't speak much of indon. and shame on me! she had been to bali twice and is gg for the third time!

I knew quite a number of westerners now and some sporeans as school has started. Dat makes lives more interesting. And of course, I still stick to my indons gang. Life is colourful.

We ran at 11:15 AM

finally

havent been updating for quite some time. i am preety busy these days. dont even have time to sleep, let alone hang out wif friends. i felt guilty for not jogging too. i just couldnt help it. now dat my reading materials and unwashed laundry pile up and many activities lined up, i slept only 6 hrs each day. but i'm happy.

i just checked my mails and washed my track pants, coz friday is another round of practice session.

it's a short update. and gosh!! I love my residence so much now. i bet hall is even better

We ran at 9:02 PM

buddhism

1st lesson of the day

Let go of your anger and any other negative aspects. Forget about what harms others had done to you, forgive them. Instead think of something joyful and memorable. Attract none of those negative aspects during rebirth, breathe in the positive aspects.

I will be a better person one day.

2nd Lesson of the day

Question ourselves: What are family, friends, health, fame and materials are to us?
They are just short-term assets becoz they last not for 70 years but a life time. So, what are long-term assets? It is good karma. Good Karma can shape our present or future lives. Remember Newton's 3rd Law: "for every action, there is a reaction." One reaps what one sows. I am lucky becoz I'm reborn in a place where I can make a difference to others' lives and hence creating good karma. Maybe it's my karma in the past that enabled me to enjoy this priviledge. Good Karma that gives me a good life. How unfair would it be to have people suffering in Africa and Paris Hilton living her life without the need to work? karma gives the answer to my question.

3rd Lesson of the day

One day, a poor man complained to a rich man why he was poor? the rich man told him he was wrong. the rich man was more than willing to make him rich [materials]. He asked whether the poor man is willing to give up one of his eyes for 1 mill pound? or 200k pounds for one of his little fingers? he retorted:"are you crazy?". Each and everyone of us is not poor. God above ordains us with so many great bodies and thus enables us to survive no matter how harsh the environment is. Be thankful each day, coz we will never know which parts of our body will be lost one day...becoz money alone can't buy them back. Love who you are.

seeing, seeing
intending, sntending
moving, moving
touching, touching
lifting,lifting
opening, opening
putting, putting
closing, closing
feeling, feeling
chewing, chewing
tasting, tasting
swallowing, swallowing

be aware of the whole sequence involved
there's no one behind it,
no one who's eating,
merely a sequence of intentions, movements, taste, touch, sensations.
that's what we are

and being very mindful of the flow,
we free ourselves from the concept of self

[Let's see and believe, not believe and see]===thanks to anggita for this profound phrase.

We ran at 10:51 PM

pgp

i'm now in pgp

life was boring for the 1st day, but now is heaven

i knew 2 students from USA on SEP
i knew many medanese
and many indonesians and malaysians

pgp room is smelly and i have to work my ass to clean it and make it smell nice.

We ran at 3:49 PM

Self

Name :Erwin
Birthday:04/04/86
School:tj
Horoscope:aries
Likes:good stuff
Dislikes:nasty stuff

The me u know now may not be the same person u know next